Bloody Straightjacket

I'm caught in a straightjacket
Reflecting on the world
There isn't much that I can do
I'm "just a little girl"
People come and people move on
Out from my life
And now I can't save myself cuz
I'm blinded from the light

People pushing me away and
I been trying to help
So I guess I'm all alone and
I just have myself
Now my skin is tearing and I'm
Beginning to bleed
Blood is dripping on my straightjacket
Which is making it hard to breathe

My circulation's cutting off
I am seeing flashbacks
Of my mama being here again
Now I wanna go back
My straightjacket is tied too tight
I'm sitting in my padded cell rocking
Trying to focus
The voices in my head are talking

I can't take this too much more
I can't even scream
I don't know how I got here
It all seems like a fucked up dream
Someone's knocking at my door
He comes barging in, an axe in his hand
All I hear is chop chop chop
And I still don't understand

All I'm hearing is chop chop chop
("Don't give a shit about you")
And my brain's about to pop
("Only give a shit about me")
Can't express how I feel
("Fuck you all just die")
My throat is bleeding as my skin starts to peel
("I'm gonna fucking kill you")
I wanna scream
("I'm gonna fucking kill you all")
Wake me from this dream
("I'm gonna fucking kill you all")
SCREAM
("I'm gonna fucking kill you all")
SCREAM
("I'm gonna fucking kill you all")
FIGHT
("I'm gonna fucking kill you all")
NOOOOOOOOOOO!

See what this world brings on
It's full of evil
Now my mind is gone
I can't think
I can't feel
I am still bleeding
This can't be real
Now I'm dead but I'm free
The doctor hangs a straightjacket on the wall
Used to be bloody
But now there's no red at all

Now it's bright white
Blinding your eyes
He puts it on so tight
But no surprise
You sit on the floor rocking
And your eyes sting
Your voices start talking
Then we start to sing...

Lalalalalala...

And so it starts all over again
Soon he will be there, axe in hand
Though he's not real
Now I understand

Time To Die

I can't take this anymore
I hear the lock click in the door
I'm all alone
And no one's home
But me

Pick up the polished loaded gun
This time don't cry for everyone
Who will miss me?
Where will they be?
They'll be happy

Metal's heavy in my hand
So cold so reassuring
Won't have to take this anymore
Crushing me
Cutting off my circulation
Must cease breathing
Time to die

The shot rings out across the room
Now it is silent like a tomb
My blood has run cold
I can't remember who I told
But no one seems to care

I can see the blood run down my face
Soaking into every place
I'm so glad I don't have to put up with this
I'm just glad no one will miss
My pathetic life

Metal's heavy in my hand
So cold so reassuring
Won't have to take this anymore
Crushing me
Cutting off my circulation
Must cease breathing
Time to die

Please forgive me, I didn't know you cared
I was just so selfish, so scared
Didn't wanna take it anymore
No I couldn't take it anymore...

Now I won't suffer anymore

Mommy's Got a Gun

She shuts the door
Can�t take any more
Clawing out her eyes
Breaking off all ties
Losing all her friends
It�s hopeless in the end

He beats her ass twice a night
She tells the kids it�s all right
But she knows it�s not okay
Don�t wanna live another day
She doesn�t know just what to do
She knows if she stays or runs she�ll lose

Mommy�s got a gun
Hold on little ones
She�s crying day in
She�s crying day out
Mommy�s got a gun
Mommy�s freaking out

She just can�t win
Everywhere it�s just him
Like a knife right in the chest
Like an illegal house arrest
He�s always there
He doesn�t even care

He is watching every move
She cant hide she knows she�ll lose
What the is left to do?
You knew she was crying out to you
You stood there staring
Blatantly not caring

Mommy�s got a gun
Hold on little ones
She�s crying day in
She�s crying day out
Mommy�s got a gun
Mommy�s freaking out

(You stupid bitch I hate you)
(You�re just so worthless I HATE YOU)
(I can�t wait til the day I leave you)
(I love how you suffer every time I beat you)
(I love the fear I see in your eyes)
(I seek out your terror your pain your surprise)

FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU STUPID SHIT I HATE YOU
YOU�RE JUST SO WORTHLESS I HATE YOU
I CAN�T WAIT TIL THE DAY I SEE YOU DEAD
I LOVE THE THOUGHT OF PUMPING YOU WITH LEAD
I�M GONNA LOVE THE FEAR IN YOUR EYES
I SEEK OUT YOUR TERROR YOUR PAIN YOUR SURPRISE

Mommy�s got a gun
Hold on little ones
She�s crying day in
She�s crying day out
Mommy�s got a gun
Mommy�s freaking out

You Say

You say
Nothing
Won't give
Me the chance to say
How much I'm sorry

It's not
Fair how
You can live your
Superficial lives
But still disrespect all else

It's not fair
How you give
What you'll never take yourself
I hope the memory stays
Like festering sores
I can sleep at night because I know
You'll get yours

You sit
So pretty
In your cliques
You think you're all that
But next to us you're not shit

We know
How to
Be true
To each other
We don't lie to ourselves

It's not fair
How you give
What you'll never take yourself
I hope the memory stays
Like festering sores
I can sleep at night because I know
You'll get yours

You talk
So much shit
No wonder
You're so hated
So disrespected

But we
Try to
Return the favor
You stand
In the way and try to ruin us

It's not fair
How you give
What you'll never take yourself
I hope the memory stays
Like festering sores
I can sleep at night because I know
You'll get yours

IF YOU
THINK YOU
CAN TALK ALL YOUR SHIT
THEN PLAY
BEST FRIEND
YOU'RE NOT EVEN WORTH THIS
YOU ARE
NOTHING
AND YOU'LL ALWAYS BE
LESS THAN ME!

You will
get yours
(Watch this vicodin)
You will
get yours
(I'll take it all in)
You will
get yours
(You keep killing me)
You will
get yours
(NOT THAT YOU GIVE A FUCK ANYWAY)

It's not fair
How you give
What you'll never take yourself
I hope the memory stays
Like festering sores
I can sleep at night because I know
You'll get yours

What is Real

I don't know
What you expect of me
I don't know
Where's your respect for me?

I went through
Way too much
For you to accuse
Something you've never touched

Who are you
To tell me
What is real
Not even I know
How to deal
I didn't want you
On my case
Now I don't want you
In my face

They say maybe
It was a dream
And just how real
They can seem

I pray I didn't do
What I think I did
But if I did
I WAS JUST A KID

Who are you
To tell me
What is real
Not even I know
How to deal
I didn't want you
On my case
Now I don't want you
In my face

SAVE ME
I don't know
FREE ME
Of what I know
I REMEMBER
What seems so real
NOW I DON'T KNOW
How to deal

Help me don't
Blame me
For something
I didn't know

Never Good Enough

I fell so lost in all
The ways I suck
I'm thinking I'm worthless
But do I give a fuck?

I feel like floating in all
The ways I don't matter
I sit around and watch all I
Care for shatter

I look in the mirror I know
I'll never not fucking blow
I'm thinking I really don't
Give half a fuck
But it still hurts me that I'm
Never good enough
NEVER FUCKING
NEVER GOOD ENOUGH
I know I shouldn't really
Give a fuck
But it still kills me
I'LL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH

I feel the pulling
force of gravity
How funny is it that Earth's
core sucks less than me?

I hope I fall to an untimely
Or maybe right on schedule demise
Cuz if I don't die I know I'll
Still have something to despise

I look in the mirror I know
I'll never not fucking blow
I'm thinking I really don't
Give half a fuck
But it still hurts me that I'm
Never good enough
NEVER FUCKING
NEVER GOOD ENOUGH
I know I shouldn't really
Give a fuck
But it still kills me
I'LL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH

I cannot stand myself I
Make myself fucking sick
I don't know do I really
Give a fucking shit?

The air is thick with my
Poor choices and mistakes
I suck worse than anything
A million give or takes

I look in the mirror I know
I'll never not fucking blow
I'm thinking I really don't
Give half a fuck
But it still hurts me that I'm
Never good enough
NEVER FUCKING
NEVER GOOD ENOUGH
I know I shouldn't really
Give a fuck
But it still kills me
I'LL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH

I hate me....

Deadbeat Daddy

I wish I could turn my back today
But my love for you can't go away
I feel so unimportant to you
You stir my emotions so I don't know what to do

I want to just stop caring
But the love can't disappear
I wish you'd just go away
But losing you is just what I fear

I wish you'd go to hell
But I'll always wish you well
I love you, and I hate you
I wish you would just go away
Please stay
I can't go on wouldn't be here without you
I don't believe you but don't doubt you
I wish you would just go away
Please stay

I need you back in my life
Seeing you is like a twist of this knife
I can't stop respecting you
You an asshole but I love you

I can't stop contradicting myself
I love you while you make life hell
I need you here, I need you gone
I run away but I seem to run along

I wish you'd go to hell
But I'll always wish you well
I love you, and I hate you
I wish you would just go away
Please stay
I can't go on wouldn't be here without you
I don't believe you but don't doubt you
I wish you would just go away
Please stay

I want you here you want me gone
You want me gone but you string me along
You don't want me here
But I need you near

You won't take the time to understand
You won't see that I'm now a man
Not just some kid you can jerk around
I miss your voice but I despise the sound

I wish you'd go to hell
But I'll always wish you well
I love you, and I hate you
I wish you would just go away
Please stay
I can't go on wouldn't be here without you
I don't believe you but don't doubt you
I wish you would just go away
Please stay

You make me contradict myself
You're such a dick go to hell
I love you, I need you
But I know you won't come back to me
This time